I've been thinking about this a lot lately, and I've determined that I fall into a category of people; at least, I'm assuming there are more like me out there. It's a big planet. The "I Don't Have a Dream" people. Less popular than those who "Do Have a Dream," but still a fairly large contingent I would bet.
Specifically, I have no real sense of passion for what I want my career to be. I'm moderately satisfied with the position I have, but as I look to the future I keep thinking, "I don't want to be here forever." I look at higher positions within the company I work for, and feel no desire to climb that particular ladder.
Frustratingly, I seem to be either over or under qualified for most jobs in my area. With two Bachelor degrees, one in Psychology and the other in Liberal Arts for the Human Services, there isn't a lot for me. Most jobs require a high school diploma, and pay around $10 an hour. Other jobs want a Master's or Doctorate degree, and pay closer to $20 and up, depending. Does that make me doomed to creep along in my job, earning a 3% raise every November?
I honestly feel stuck. If I want to get paid more in a psychology field, it's pretty much a given that I will need to get a higher degree. Which requires paying out even more in loans and going back to school, neither of which appeals to me. My other option appears to be wading into a different industry entirely, for which I have almost nothing on paper that qualifies me for it and therefore would reduce me to the $10/hour earning range. We can't afford to lose any income at this point, and $10/hour is not going to pay our bills.
If I had a strong sense of what I wanted to do, I would figure out a way to make it happen. This brings me back to the "I Don't Have a Dream" issue; I am drifting in a sea of uncertainty.
Today I thought about becoming a furniture saleslady. I thought I could listen attentively to what people are looking for, make helpful suggestions and generally be successful.
Yesterday, I debated the merits of becoming a horse trainer, apprenticing myself to my barn owner for a while to help her with clients, then build my own reputation.
I have also thought about becoming a social worker, a high school counselor, an aide to the elderly, a customer care representative, an administrative assistant, a security guard, a police officer, a baker, and occasionally I day dream about being a stay-at-home mom. Even though I have no children and we would be broke.
About once a week I sort through different career websites, trolling for anything that looks like something I may want to do, full time, that I'm qualified for, with a decent work schedule, that pays more than I make right now. Yeah. So far, pretty much zilch.
I applied for two jobs today, and we'll see what response I get. One is in the same office Justin works for, which would be great for the schedule, pay, and ride sharing with my husband. The other I am fairly uncertain about, and is for an activities coordinator at an elderly living center.
One thing that does interest me is doing animal assisted therapy, using horses with people. However, that would require a higher degree and certification in that type of therapy. Additionally, while there is a place nearby that does it, they only run during the summer.
Oh Great Internet Universe, what should I do? It's getting a bit disheartening.